Inner Turmoil

This summer Lynn and I have had the unique opportunity to be at home to raise our new child and to raise support for our next year of ministry. Although we have experienced support raising once before, it has never been this hard. One of the interesting things that takes place when support raising gets hard is an attack on the husband and his ability to provide for his family. There are many thoughts that run through my mind as we face tough financial times. Thoughts of inadequacy, failure and hopelessness run through my mind and I often entertain the thought of rejecting God’s call on our lives to ministry. The truth is that this is not the solution and God is simply calling us into MORE patience and MORE faith in His provision. He has been more than faithful up this point and even though it is hard to wait on Him, we will yet wait. Lynn helps to put this all in perspective by reminding me that we were in this same situation last year with only 60% of our support in for the next year of ministry, and yet... God always comes through in the end. Money isn’t everything and I can’t praise God enough for my gorgeous wife, beautiful child and all of our amazing family and friends. Jesus has given me so much, and it is shameful for me to lose hope because of short finances. My God owns the cattle on a thousand hills and I will praise Him even when He doesn’t want me to eat beef.